"I will lead the blind by a way they do not know, in paths they do not know I will guide them. I will make darkness into light before them and rugged places into plains. These are the things I will do, and I will not leave them undone."
Sometimes as we go about life we can start to feel like we are blind. We can't see what it is coming next or the darkness is so thick and the path so rough we can scarcely walk on it because our feet feel as though they are being torn bit by bit. This can take a large toll on us as we continue to walk this path...we begin to question God and His plan.
I want to share part of my story with you.
I have been on this path for sometime now and I know the challenges it can bring. I feel so blind at times I stop and just sit down. I don't move. I don't make any decisions. I don't like anyone. I am ungrateful and anxious, finding joy becomes more and more difficult. I am angry at God and I can get stuck in that stop, giving up on trying to get out. (Yep, I have been a Christian for 21 years and I struggle at times with being angry at God…I’m going to be real with you). From the time I was 5 I knew what I wanted to do with my life, be an elementary teacher. I spent 15 years chasing that dream and as I got older I knew God had gifted me with ability to not only teach, but He gave me a love for kids. I volunteered in children’s ministry, babysat a ton and even took teaching classes throughout high school. I was on my path and I could see for miles, nothing would take me off that path for years and years, but God loved me too much to let me keep walking down that path. He had better plan for me that would bring me much more joy than I ever thought possible. However that would require getting on a different path, His path, where I couldn’t see very far and it was much more bumpy and dark because it was untraveled ground for me.
Here I am now, I am not teaching in a school and I am okay with that, regardless of what everyone says (and I know I have disappointed many in this) because I am following where my Lord leads me. He satisfies my soul in ways I never thought possible. The joy I am experiencing is far greater than I ever imagined. I am working part time and volunteering at church with the teenagers (because God has revealed to me a deep passion to help teenagers and encourage them to be all that God has designed them to be). He has given me new passions and purpose. He has replaced my old self with a new creation in Him. He has led me and is still continuing to lead me, blind me, down this path because He is a good, good Father to me and He takes care of me. He didn’t put me on this path to hurt me, but to give me a bigger, brighter future and purpose in this life. Life is still far from perfect and I have lots to still learn, BUT with Him I know the light will shine in the darkness before me as I keep walking. I still don't really know or understand what is coming my way, please understand this...I am just trusting God. I am clinging to His promises for me and His great love for me. He has never failed me and He never will!
If you are in this spot with me, hear these words: YOU ARE
NOT ALONE. This promise from God in Isaiah is just as much for you as it is for
me. I am no different than you. I have issues and mess out day in a day out,
but there truly is a God who wants to show you how much He cares about you,
turning the rugged places into plains and giving you joy on your journey with
Him. It requires DAILY trust in Him and obedience even if everyone is telling you
otherwise, but I can GUARANTEE you it is all worth it, Jesus is truly worth it
all because never will He leave it undone. Never will He leave you alone and
your path undone before you. He is the God who is our provider. He is the God
who is perfect and good and never breaks His promises (and this scripture is a
promise to you and I)! God is screaming this to you, He wants you see this
truth clearly and it is no conscience that you are reading this now. The path
may be hard to see, dark and rough, but...
He will show you where to go.
He will guide you.
He will bring light to the darkness.
He will turn the rugged places into plains.
He will not leave it undone.
I am sorry if this world or people in this world have let you down, but He never will, He is not human and He is completely perfect & He loves you, right now in all that you are right now even if you're a mess. Your mess is no different than mine, both our messes separate us from God and it is by Jesus' grace dying on the cross though He had nothing wrong and rising from the dead that has made a way for us to have hope!
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